A little less than a month ago I got a rather unexpected email. I saw it out of the corner of my eye, reading just the first line before my brain quit functioning and I lost all ability to read or form cohesive sentences.
I’ve been accepted to the Clarion 2015 class. I will spend this summer in San Diego studying writing with six professional authors and 17 other students, basically having the best summer ever.
It still feels a little unreal. I’ve known about Clarion for over a decade. It’s always been one of those “someday maybe…” kind of things.
Someday maybe when I’m a little older.
Someday maybe when I’ve paid off my student loans.
Someday maybe when I can afford to take six weeks off of work.
Someday maybe when I’m a better writer.
When I decided in December to apply for the first time, it was because 2 and 3 were finally feasible, and 1 has become increasingly real. I didn’t know about number 4. I doubted that one. The previous year was one with very little (outside of day job) writing in it. I felt disappointment along with hopelessness about myself and my abilities.
When I submitted my application on February 28th I prepared myself to accept a rejection. It’s only your first try. You’ll have another year to practice and get back in the writing groove. Next year…
But I made it–I’m in. It’s happening. I’m excited. I’m ready.
I’m already back on track with my writing. I have three stories out for submissions and I’m working on rewrites for some others.
I can’t wait for summer.
Isolation, a horror anthology from Post Mortem Press that features my story “File 8962: Found in Apartment 211 on Clean-Up Day 2” is now available!
There are a few options to get a copy of this super awesome anthology. Order it in print from Post Mortem Press or Amazon.com. It’s also available digitally for Kindle and as an ebook at Smashwords.
Check it out and let me know what you think about the story and the collection as a whole.
Isolation, the newest anthology from Post Mortem Press is now available for pre-order on their website. The release date is January 15, 2011.
In addition to being a kick-ass anthology, it features my short story “File 8962: Found in Apartment 211 on Clean-Up Day 2.” It’s a lovely little humor piece about unrequited love and zombies.
If you’re more tech savvy and prefer an ebook version, it’s already available for Kindle on Amazon’s site.
I’m at a weird time right now. I spent November unemployed for the seventh consecutive month and threw my energy into writing a novel for Nanowrimo. I was living and breathing writing and my story and figuring out the whole big mess. I was even dreaming in science fiction for the last week or so of the month. It was fantastic.
Then December came, I finished my novel on time, celebrated the news that one of my stories was accepted for publishing by an anthology, took a break for a day or two, and then dove into working on another short story I was really excited about. Everything seemed great, like I’d finally unlocked the secret door in my mind to continually push myself to write and create and do all these things I want to do without letting fear or procrastination or life get in the way.
Then life got in the way.
Someone hired me for a great little day job, with a fun bunch of people for a company I really respect. Now I spend 3 days a week doing that plus some freelance work here and there, and oh look, another part-time job on the horizon. Fantastic. Time for training. Oh, and holidays are coming? Throw that in too.
Life got in the way. I come home exhausted. My days off quickly fill up with other obligations (I hate whoever invented the holidays). That spark of creativity, the inspiring whispers of the muse–they’ve all been muddled and trampled into non-existence, leaving behind this nagging guilt that I’m not doing the things I want to be doing.
I have no good excuses. There are no good excuses. Hell even writing this post right now is a way to procrastinate working on my story. But maybe it’s a step in the right direction…